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[Jul. 14th, 2005|01:07 am] |
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| |  frustrated | ] |
UGH
I don't know. Things are worrying me. Caitlin = discontent....kinda feel like screaming sometimes. Can't sleep, always hungry....
fuckin.....shit |
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| yup yup |
[Jul. 8th, 2005|11:03 pm] |
| [ | currently feelin' |
| |  content | ] |
| [ | La Musique |
| | no music | ] |
I don't write that often anymore...oh well, got lots to do I guess.
Jon and I went to the National Zoo in Washington DC yesterday. That was really fun. The weather was good for walking around...it was kinda humid, but there was no sun, which was awesome, otherwise we woulda been reaalllyy toasty. Animals are awesome. Lots of good pictures.
Tomorrow I'm working 10-4 at Panera then 6-9 at the hospital. I like how I asked for more hours at Panera, and I'm working one day next week. That's great, thanks a lot guys. Hopefully I can steal one of Rachel's 6 shifts...grr. I feel like I need another job cuz the hospital is 12 hours a month if I work all my shifts, and that's just not working out. But then my hours at Panera are so unpredictable, so I wouldn't be able to balance another job. But I want one...hmmm...
Still need to find time to go to Six Flags, camping, horseback riding, Nepal....what? I like summer.
I'm cat sitting for like 9 days...which is awesome because cat sitting = filling food and water once a day and changing litter box once the entire week and getting paid. Cats are easy..sweet.
My UMD orientation is July 21-22. I get my photo ID (yay!) and make my schedule (yay!!) and stay in a dorm (ugh!) and then probably do some other pointless college stuff. I'm excited for my schedule though. And I'm living in Jon's old dorm so...that's cool I guess. I can't wait til school starts.
What else?....fireworks at Annapolis were cool. War of the Worlds was a really good movie. I hate insects, especially beetles. I like reptiles and want a snake/iguana.
Annnd a 12 year old died playing golf? What the shit...I'm sorry, that's sad cuz he was only 12, but what the shit. His golf club broke in two...he was running....he tripped...the golf club went thru his neck and he died. What....the...shit.
Lots of sheep died because they jumped off a cliff for no apparent reason.
Viagra causes blindness...big penis=no vision.
The news is awesome...way to go Americans (and sheep).
I think I'm done....probably going to sleep fairly early...waking up at 9:15 tomorrow, which is a lot harder than you'd think, so good night!
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| my oh my |
[Jul. 1st, 2005|10:59 am] |
| [ | currently feelin' |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | La Musique |
| | nada | ] |
Today is the last day for babysitting my cousins (well, second cousins, but who gives)!! I'm happy about that. I also get paid by their mom and Panera today, so hopefully I can keep saving my money and not spend all of it at the mall like I did last time...you know....where I had money one day, and then I realized I had negative $6.84 that was shit, but it won't happen again!
Dude, it's soooo humid outside...ew. It's one of those days where literally as soon as you go outside you start sweating. Yick.
Seeing War of the Worlds tonight with my baaaby....I can't wait! :)
Hopefully Panera doesn't fire me for "stealing" soup. Long story short, I ate soup without paying for it and didn't think it was a problem because when do we not get free food? Never. All of us that work there are always eating for freeeeeee and never get in trouble because we don't take expensive shit. Then Dave works and Dave decided a long time ago that he wasn't going to contribute anything to Panera except a gigantic pain in everyone else's ass, and an even bigger stick up his own. All he does is bitch and read the paper and eat....for free of course, because he's god and he can do whatever he wants. Guess what, Dave? You suck and you're rude and bitchy, which is why no one respects you or what you think or say...get over yourself. *slap*
I should go running, but I don't wanna! It's so frickin hot outside, which makes it like 500 times harder to run. And it's so hard to get back in shape once you've fallen this far out of shape. Sports induced asthma doesn't help either.
I should eat better, but I don't wanna!....I don't really have an excuse here.... :(
Also, i like how no one at Panera ever wants to switch shifts with me. I was supposed to go camping with Mina, and I'm allowed to and I can, except I work Saturday 4-close. I've been trying to get ppl to switch with me since last Saturday, and guess what? Everyone sucks! I hate you bitches.
I want another job....like I don't want 3 jobs, just a different one. Panera is still ok, but I should do something besides the hospital because I can never work there...I've made like $50 in the last 2 months because I only worked 6 hours. That's not acceptable and doesn't really count as a job. Sean made soo much money as a busser at Rocky Run...maybe I'll do that, but not at Rocky Run. Uno's is hiring hosts and waiters (and the girl versions of each), but I'm pretty sure you have to be 18 to work there....stupid late birthday.
It's 11:00am....I leave in an hour to spend 5 more hours with the kiddies, then I need a shower, then I'm gonna see a movie. Sounds good to me!
Food time :) |
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[Jun. 22nd, 2005|01:05 am] |
| [ | currently feelin' |
| |  confused | ] |
Just got back from seeing Star Wars III. It was pretty good except people suck at acting. Love Yoda I do.
Anyway...
I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I feel like a completely different person. I've been really really moody lately, mostly feeling really down and letting a lot of little things get to me way more than they ever would normally. None of my feelings are justified though. Everything's going pretty well in my life. There's some tension with my mother, but nothing unusual or more than normal. She's worried that my relationship with Jon is obsessive...okay, so I'm with him pretty much all the time, but I'm not ignoring my friends, and I'm really happy with him, so where's the problem? Now I pretty much have to sneak around in order to hang out with him, so maybe I feel like I can't enjoy myself to the fullest cuz I have a guilty conscience? I don't know I'm just throwing shit out there. I just feel sad.
I dunno....I want to be chipper like I usually am, but I can't and I wanna know why. Also, I feel unloved for no reason. That's happened before. I feel that need to be loved/needy/I want affection type of thing. I'm also always hungry. I'm controlling myself so I don't become huge, but I'm alwayyysss hungry....and I have cramps really randomly. And I seem to constantly have a tiny pressure headache that won't go away. I can't sleep, and when I do I have disturbing dreams about sad things that I won't get into. What the shit....
So sorry if I seem different. It's nothing anyone's said or done. Maybe it's just hormones or some shit.
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| stuff.... |
[Jun. 20th, 2005|09:34 am] |
| [ | currently feelin' |
| | tired | ] |
Summer is good. I like not having obligations besides work, which is a good obligation becase I need money. Jon and I went to King's Dominion all day friday...it was lots and lots of fun! Other than that nothing's really happening...just chillin I guess.
I have to babysit my second cousins all this week and next from noon to 5pm...I'd much rather be doing something else, but it's easy money so why not. Wednesday and Friday are gonna be long days though because right after I'm done with the kids I have to work at Panera til close.
Tension between me and my mom again/as usual. Things will be so much better for everyone around us when I move out.
I had a really bad/sad dream last night. I woke up and felt sick and disturbed.
I'm going back to sleep til noon. |
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| Senior Week!! |
[Jun. 13th, 2005|12:34 am] |
| [ | currently feelin' |
| |  happy | ] |
Ocean City was so much fun! I was there saturday to saturday with Jon, Chrstina/Jason, Rachel/Erik, and Erin & Co. 99.9% of the time it was the 3 couples hangin out and it was amazing. We did Phillip's, Higgins all-you-can-eat crabs, Seacrets, Harpoon Hannah's, Dough Roller, Dumser's, Thrasher's, and all that other awesome OC/Boardwalk food. Of course we did the whole mini golf thing, and Jon and I won a free round cuz we hit the ball in the tiger's mouth...actually, it wasn't a tiger, it was a saber toothed tiger ;) The weather was perfect, we all got tan and maybe a little fat....I love the beach.
It's 12:38am sunday night/monday morning and I'm tired and I'm not sure why I'm not in bed. Today was uneventful. I got 12 hours of sleep and could've kept going, but my dad woke me up for Church as usual. Guess I just had a long week...but wow. Ahhhh I wanna go back!! We will sometime this summer...
Tomorrow we're heading over to Jon's house to swim cuz his pool's open! No more acid, so we won't get burned like poor Inge. Hopefully it's really hot like today...those are the best days for the pool.
I don't work at Panera til thursday...I think Sam (manager) is mad at me because I specifically asked him for more hours and he said yea sure fine no problem. Then I was supposed to pick up a shift one day, but I called out that morning cuz I had no voice, which is not my fault. But he kept asking me "are you sure you can work? are you sure you can pick up this shift?" and I kept reassuring him, but then I called out. But I couldn't talk so what the hell was I supposed to do! It's not my fault Sam, give me more hours!! psh grudge-holder.
K I'm off to bed. My room is about 106 degrees right now, and my pillow is still in my car from OC, so we'll see how I sleep.
Good night! |
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| just another day..... |
[May. 29th, 2005|11:36 am] |
| [ | currently feelin' |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | La Musique |
| | boyz 2 men | ] |
yeaaa still in that mood....feelin kinda lonely and unloved and sheit for no particular reason at all. I'll be cool once we go to OC.
I work at the pharmacy tonight...fuckin hell.
Jon left for North Carolina an hour ago with Sean, Tim, Chris, etc. He and Sean will be back tuesday night/early weds morning for my graduation.
Shower time I guess. I really don't feel like taking a shower. I don't feel like doing much of anything actually...especially hang out with my mother, which I think I may be forced to do today >:(
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| im glad i can type with my eyes closed |
[May. 28th, 2005|10:16 pm] |
| [ | currently feelin' |
| | sleepy | ] |
| [ | La Musique |
| | from this moment! hehehe | ] |
I'm pretty tired. I worked 4-close with Mina and it was sooo dead. I think we had a total of 14 customers all damn day...which is kinda good, but really boring. I'm glad Mina's not retarded...we work well together :) I wish we could have a sleepover with cookie dough and movies..but my mom decided that I was too tired to go to sleep at someone else's house....
People from the hospital called me at 6:30 and were like where the fuck are you. Whoops, I forgot to tell them I wasn't coming....so irresponsible, but what are you gonna do? How bout I quit? Sweet.
You know when farts smell like broccoli and cheddar soup? Neat...
Tomorrow...nothing's happening. I have to work at the pharmacy (EEEWWW UUGHHH FUCKING EW) but that's it. I should probably look for my forensics book so people can actually attend my graduation....
I'm so glad it's summer (well it's spring...but like vacation-wise). We leave for OC in exactly 1 week....I'm sooo excited!!
There are so many paninis in my fridge right now...I can't wait til I'm hungry again so I can eat them all.
I'm gonna go shower I guess. And maybe watch the Lion King because, damn....what a good movie. |
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[May. 28th, 2005|12:13 am] |
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so emotionally off....whats going on with my head |
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| no more high school ever |
[May. 27th, 2005|02:06 pm] |
| [ | currently feelin' |
| | moody | ] |
| [ | La Musique |
| | "Yes" - Chad Brock | ] |
This morning we had senior awards, which I didn't have to go to cuz the same 10 people got all the awards while the rest of us sat there, not noticed or cared about. It was boring and all the awards all bullshit...here's an award for being black...here's one for having a baby while in high school...and here's 5 for each of the really smart kids who have no social lives. I'm exaggerating, but still...it was really annoying.
Kris from Panera just called...I'm working at 3 instead of 4 which is good cuz I need money.
It's weird coming home from school to an empty house. Grandparents are on vacation, parents are working, sean is whatever, and even Jon isn't here.
I'm in one of those moods. I think it's cuz of the shot...all the hormones and shit screw with my head a lot...stupid hormones. I'm in one of those clingy needy whiney sad moods that sucks for people around me. Dont feel like explaining...
After work everyone who's staying together for senior week is going to Erin's house to meet each other and talk about basic stuff like room situations, food stuff, money, and that sort of thing. Should be fun.
I'm definitely quitting the hospital...I hate it there...it's so boring.
Annnd I'm leaving for work cuz I have nothing better to do.
Peace out bitches. |
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